Beaten and Not Good Enough
As ya'll may know... yesterday was the release of The Meaning of Tri from mindsettriathlon.com. Yes... my essay It's All About The Threesome was published in it... and don't get me wrong... I WAS excited for that. Well now the tables have turned because I wasn't chosen as one of the top three essays for the book. I didn't care about winning an underwater MP3 player... I just wanted to to podium as the top three. I feel defeated and beat... just like in the game of triathlon... when I didn't podium. Just like I have that thought of quitting triathlon... I want to quit writing because I'm NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I think the truth is... no matter how moving or inspirational someone said my essay really was... it's a HUGE lie. I haven't seen the other essays in the book... but mine is probably the suckiest of all and should have never been chosen.
More to come...
More to come...
Comments
Keep your head up girl!
I guess that's my perspective - I'm not a top 3 placer so does that make ME not good enough?