Wanting To Throw In The Towel
For the first time since a hard workout during Ironman Lake Placid last year I cried my way through swim practice. Between my body recovering from Rev3 Montclair Triathlon and having NO swim buddies my speed; I cried because I wanted to throw in the towel and give up on swimming and coaching. While I was swimming; I formulated an email in my head to send to Heather to just give up on the coaching completely. Unfortunately; I ended up writing an email to her explaining my depression and anxiety and how it sometimes speaks too loud in my mind and tells me to give in. But thankfully right after I wrote the email I talked to my friend Julie who I swim with and do triathlons with; then deciding to write another email to Heather to disregard the first email. Honestly I feel like an idiot and hope all is still well.